Friday, January 22, 2016

Day 3

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The golden days of my life continued in Atlanta.  Days of rolling down hills in barrels turned to nights of falling asleep to the wind moaning around the sides of our cabin and the rain drumming on the tin roof.  In the distance I heard a train whistle, and thought about the people on the train.  In the winter I explored in my snug little sheepskin jacket, wondering at the way the world had become covered with icing.   In the summer I imagined what shapes the clouds made and dreamed of going beyond the mountains.  We loved music, and either records or the radio played all day in the house.  

And so it was that I turned five.  One day my mother had a plan.  Looking back I see that there was some thought given to the plan.  She decided that we should all go camping.  That sounded fine.  She bought a canvas army tent, probably from the same place she bought my treasured little jacket, the army navy surplus store, she said.  What soldiers had they made those tiny jackets for? It must have been summer, because it was warm and my brother wasn't in school that day.  Mother decided that we should all go down to the railroad tracks, about a half a mile away, on the pretext of picking up the railroad spikes to anchor the ropes of the tent.  

So off we all went, Mother, Bunny, Button, Baby, our dog Amos, and me.  Baby was a little lassie of two, so Mother carried her.  It was about a half mile to the railroad crossing, and then we began walking down the tracks.  This was my longest walk so far in my life and I was intrigued at the possibilities of how far I could travel.  About another half mile down the tracks, and we came to the South River. It was also the first time I had seen the South River, and but Mother knew all about it.  We found spikes everywhere and collected them as we went as if they were pieces of gold.  

Across the South River was a long, tall train trestle, about 60 feet high and an eighth of a mile long.  This fascinated my mother, and she encouraged us all to walk across the trestle.  I had some doubts about this, but she told us it was perfectly safe.  Did we see the little box built off the side of the trestle in about the middle?  We should run to that if a train came.  If that was too far we could leap off into the river.  It would be fun!

My brother Bunny ran onto the trestle and I followed him, and so did the dog.  The dog was alarmed about it though and kept barking to warn us but he refused to leave us.  My sister Button followed me for a little way, but the wood slats of the trestle were spaced so far apart that there was plenty of room to fall through, especially for small people, and she was only four and turned back.  

We came to the other side of the trestle, and Bunny suggested that we go back to the other side.  My heart sank to realize I would have to cross the river again, and it was then that I realized that neither Button nor Mother were with us.  So we went back over the trestle, Bunny, me, the dog and the angels.

I was still following Bunny and when we got back across the river, he stepped off the tracks a few feet ahead of me.  I stepped off the tracks, but on the same instant a train began to pass me at very high speed.  I never saw the train until it was passing me.   It was about a foot from me, only one step.  

Unfortunately, I was being sucked by the momentum of the train under its wheels.  I was unable to move away from it for the force of the pull, and I was only able to keep from being pulled under the train by standing perfectly still.  So there I stood for an eternity, trying my best not to breathe or blink or run.  I hoped my mother would rescue me and managed to see her and the others standing around 20 feet from the tracks.  Mother's hand was over her eyes to block the sun, as she watched the train with a big smile.  No, mother wasn't going to rescue me.  

I held on to my position for dear life, but after a few minutes I realized I was losing the battle.  I hoped the train would slow down but suddenly the suction from the train increased to a level I couldn't withstand.  I knew I was going under the wheels.  Just then I saw the rear of the caboose, and it was over.   

There's not a very good explanation of how this happened.  My sister even pointed out to me once that the trains passed on a schedule that Mother probably would have been aware of.   


More to come. 





Wednesday, January 20, 2016

My Second Jessner Peel

About six months ago, I wrote about my first Jessner peel (chemical skin peel).  It was quite an ordeal, mostly because of not knowing what to expect.  The actual result was that  my face stung some, and then turned red.  In a couple of days the top layer of skin turned a little darker, and in a couple more days it peeled off.  And was I thrilled with my nice result?  Oh, it was OK.  A couple of tiny growths on my nose were gone, and I was delighted to see that.  My sun damage areas looked slightly improved.  

Slightly?  I wanted more than slightly.  I had read that it was a good idea to repeat the peel about once a month for six months.  Great idea.  Why didn't I do that?  I just kept making excuses, until one day I realized I would now have to start all over with my series of six Jessner peels.  

And so it was that I finally decided to try it again.  The first time I had been extremely cautious.  Most of this caution came from watching Youtube videos.  All good advice, but for example, the object is to cause the skin to peel.  They all advise not to pull the skin off but allow it to come off on its own schedule, which is hard to do, because soon one has pieces of dead skin hanging from one's face.  If you try to pull it off, it tends to not let go from areas that aren't ready.  Therefore the loose piece of dead skin should be cut off with scissors.  OK.  So the last person that mentioned this said that they had purchased medical grade scissors and sterilized them before each use.  Oh?  What a nuisance.  Little pieces of flaking skin need to be cut a million times before its over.  Medical grade scissors are not to be had locally either, and I don't have them.  All that needs to happen here is that the peeling skin isn't pulled.  Ordinary little scissors.  

This time I didn't wash the entire bathroom with bleach first.  I did used fresh washcloths and towels.  I didn't even fill the sink with water.  I washed my face, went over it with rubbing alcohol, poured about an eighth of a cup of Jessner peel acid into a small dish, and some baking soda in another dish, and began to apply the acid with cotton swabs.  I did take the precaution of putting petroleum jelly near my eyes, and my lips.  

I had firmly made up my mind that I was going to peel my eyelids, in addition to my face, neck and chest.  The dark circles had to go.  So I started on my upper eyelids, and went all the way to the eyelashes.  That went OK, except that closing one eye made it harder to see what I was doing.  I managed.  Then I did the lower eyelids.  That was not a problem really.  Then I started on my forehead, but the cotton swabs were too slow, so I switched to a piece of gauze.  Another big area of concern was the elevens, the wrinkles between my eyebrows.  I was done with them!  I tried to give them a big dose of strong medicine, but nothing much happened. Then I did the rest of my face, my neck and my chest.  

It did sting, but not that much.  I checked my time.  After five minutes I applied a second coat.  I checked my time again.  Meanwhile, my nose and eyes were rebelling.  Tears ran down my face, and my nose was running so much that all the treatment on my lips came off.  OK, now what.  I tried to blow my nose and wipe off the tears without touching anything.  That wasn't working. I worried about my eyes, and took a cotton swab, wet it with water, and dipped it in baking soda and dabbed that on my tear duct in one eye.  Then I gave up on doing anything about the problems, and tried to reapply all the acid that had washed off under my eyes and above my top lip.  

Eventually I did four layers of the acid, except for the upper eyelids.  The eye situation was too out of control for that.  And twenty five minutes had gone by.  Much longer than the first peel.  This should be good.  

So what was the result?  About the same as before, for all the extra time and layers of acid.  I suppose that this is a fairly mild acid, which is good because one is not likely to hurt themselves with it.  But on the other hand, the results are nice, but not terribly impressive.  

Back to the internet.  I watched all the chemical peel videos over again to plan what to do in the future.  Oh, oh, here's a marvelous idea!!  After you start the peel with Jessner peel, then put on some 25% TCA!!  That's what I need.  I bet that would fix those elevens and dark circles! So I ordered 25% TCA.  

TCA really is much stronger, and on top of Jessner, stronger still.  Don't think I'm just going to do that without some patch tests.  However, I do think I will try it.  I'll probably do a 25% TCA by itself without any Jessner. 

Stay tuned.  





Monday, January 18, 2016

John 8

John 8  Written from memory






1. Jesus went unto the mount of Olives.
2. And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him, and he sat down and taught them. 







3. And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery, and when they had set her in the midst, 
4. They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act. 







5. Now Moses in the law commanded us that such should be stoned, but what sayest thou? 







6. This they said tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not. 








7. And when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. 







8. And again he stooped down and wrote on the ground. 







9. And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning with the eldest, even unto the last, and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. 






10. When Jesus had lifted up himself and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? Hath no man condemned thee? 
11. She said, No man, Lord.  And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee.  Go and sin no more. 









12. Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world. He that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life. 
13. The Pharisees therefore said unto him, Thou bearest record of thyself. Thy record is not true. 
14. Jesus answered and said unto them, Though I bear record of myself, yet my record is true, for I know whence I came, and whither I go, but ye cannot tell whence I come and whither I go. 
15. Ye judge after the flesh, I judge no man. 
16. And yet if I judge, my judgment is true, for I am not alone, but I and the Father that sent me. 
17. It is also written in your law that the testimony of two men is true. 
18. I am one that bare witness of myself, and the Father that sent me beareth witness of me. 
19. Then said they unto him, Where is thy Father?  Jesus answered, Ye neither know me, nor my Father.  If ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also. 
20. These words spake Jesus in the treasury, as he taught in the temple, and no man laid hands on him, for his hour was not yet come. 
21. Then said Jesus again unto them, I go my way, and ye shall seek me, and shall die in your sins.  Whither I go, ye cannot come.
22. Then said the Jews, Will he kill himself? because he saith, Whither I go, ye cannot come. 
23. And he said unto them, Ye are from beneath, I am from above. Ye are of this world, I am not of this world. 
24. I said therefore unto you that ye shall die in your sins, for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. 
25. Then said they unto him, Who art thou? And Jesus saith unto them, Even the same that I said unto you from the beginning. 
26. I have many things to say and to judge of you, but he that sent me is true, and I speak to the world those things which I have heard of him. 
27. They understood not that he spake to them of the Father. 
28. Then said Jesus unto them, When ye have lifted up the Son of man, then shall ye know that I am he, and that I do nothing of myself, but as my Father hath taught me, I speak these things. 
29. And he that sent me is with me, the Father hath not left me alone, for I do always those things that please him. 
30. As he spake these words, many believed on him. 
31. Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If you continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed, 
32. And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. 
33. They answered him, We be Abraham's seed, and were never in bondage to any man. How sayest thou, Ye shall be made free? 
34. Jesus answered them, Verily, verily I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin, 
35. And the servant abideth not in the house forever, but the son abideth ever. 
36. If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. 
37. I know that ye are Abraham's seed, but ye seek to kill me, because my word hath no place in you. 
38. I speak those things which I have seen with my Father, and ye do those things which ye have seen with your father. 
39. They answered and said unto him, Abraham is our father.  Jesus saith unto them, If ye were Abraham's children, ye would do the works of Abraham. 
40. But now ye seek to kill me, a man that hath told you the truth, which I have heard of God. This did not Abraham. 
41. Ye do the deeds of your father.  Then said they to him, We be not born of fornication. We have one Father, even God. 
42. Jesus said unto them, If God were your Father, ye would love me, for I proceeded forth and came from God, neither came I of myself, but he sent me. 
43. Why do ye not understand my speech? even because ye cannot hear my word. 
44. Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there was no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own, for he is a liar, and the father of it. 
45. And because I tell you the truth, ye believe me not. 
46. Which of you convinceth me of sin? And if I say the truth, why do ye not believe me? 
47. He that is of God heareth God's words. Ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God. 
48. Then answered the Jews and said unto him, Say we not well that thou art a Samaritan, and hast a devil? 
49. Jesus answered, I have not a devil, but I honor my father, and ye do dishonor me. 
50. And I seek not mine own glory; there is one that seeketh and judgeth. 
51. Verily, verily I say unto you, if a man keep my saying, he shall never see death. 
52. Then said the Jews unto him, Now we know that thou hast a devil. Abraham is dead, and the prophets, and thou sayest, If a man keep my saying, he shall never taste of death. 
53. Art thou greater than our father Abraham, which is dead, and the prophets are dead. Whom makest thou thyself? 
54. Jesus answered, If I honor myself, it is nothing. It is my Father that honoreth me, of whom ye say, that he is your God. 
55. Yet ye have not known him, but I know him, and if I should say, I know him not, I shall be a liar like unto you, but I know him, and I keep his saying. 
56. Your father Abraham rejoiced to see my day, and he saw it, and was glad. 
57. Then said the Jews unto him, Thou art not yet fifty years old, and hast thou seen Abraham? 
58. Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily I say unto you, before Abraham was, I am.
59. Then took they up stones to cast at him, but Jesus hid himself, and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by. 






Saturday, January 2, 2016

The Box Where My Dreams Were Kept












I dreamt of a land by the Sapphire Sea
from whence the swallows came. 
In that land there dwelt a girl, 
Sharon was her name. 

She was as fair as Queen Anne's Lace, 
the oceans were in her eyes. 
Alabaster was her face, 
kissed by sunny skies. 







Seldom have the ponies wept, 
and seldom have they cried, 
But ponies wept on that sad day, 
Occasioned by my pride. 


Away, away! ye beautiful dreams,
but isn't it curious how, 
That it should seem to dreamers who dream 
that I might have forgotten you now? 

Never a day that I didn't kiss 
the picture that you left, 
for it was one of the treasures
in the box where my dreams were kept. 










She said, "You must fly the endless skies, 
and sail the Sapphire Sea, 
'Til you behold the dreams of gold,
and find the dreams that be.

You must fly away like a bird of prey
for the dreams that take to the skies. 
You must catch them in a silver net
like you would a butterfly."








So I sailed away at the break of day 
to fish the Sapphire Sea,
and find the dreams that flew away 
and catch the dreams that be.   






By Helene Louise